Not really..I tried but I failed..reason being I was not able to oversee all thats going on in front of me...I know its delicate but I tried to handle this delicately..I tried desperately that I choke the problem before it becomes an annoyance for me. But I failed or better say the other person was never really ready to give up.
I dont know whats going on. but I am afraid coz slowly n slowly every bad dream is soming in front of me as reality n the reluctance to do part is the biggest factor which makes me paranoid..I dont know whats gonna happen to me..it all rests with her but she doesnot wants to relent...
the more you stick the more u are involved the more u will be in trouble the more u will be disturbed..
Please hang on ..I plead as I bleed but no ears are there to listen to me...
even God has shut his ears..I just dont want to loose as I wont be able to live
Monday, October 16, 2006
Thursday, October 12, 2006
Ride Back
It was Tuesday and I was working in office at 8 PM. This week is going too hectic. I am burdened with load which I took for myself, but I am enjoying too. I had been offered a lift to home by Jagesh, who owns a car, WagonR.
So at 8:15 we left the office and for the second time I was riding back home in comfort of AC. As we approached the red light crossing on highway for a turn towards sec 37, Jagesh asked me that do I like the song which was playing in the CD player. I was totally unaware about that song. I said that I havent ever heard this song. He said how come, this is so popular?? My reply was that I dont listen much to hindi songs. The he said 'Wah bihari!'
That was as usual a slap on face for being from bihar. I dont know whay ppl seem to ill treat people from bihar? have they committed any crime by coming and working here in NCR? Why are they always abused? Just for being quite in this alien land of Jats and gujjars and of inhospitable and inhuman natives of ghaziabad and delhi and haryana who dont even know the baiscs of speech and the way to talk. The bus conductors, the auto wallahs every one seem to abuse any one as a bihari. The irony is that all the factories n shops n construction activities are driven by labours and people from bihar! If all vacte this NCR region then all these people who always abuse biahris will come on road and will start their days in agony as everything will come to a grinding halt!!
Even educated people seem to have hatred for biharis. That is obvious as biharis are succesfull in every field. No one can see them as auccessful n powerful. So the best they think is to humiliate them and mock them.....
But I dont give it a damn and I had smiled when jagesh said that. I said ya I m deeply devoted to english music and i follow hindi music very less. I kept talking of here and there and then he asked about Enigma..I said yup ..play on i am a grt fan....When he started playing enigma...I was like tears in my eyes as I was remembering college days..was remembering her....
Her!!!
Ahhhh Icant write more..lemme recollect more about her
So at 8:15 we left the office and for the second time I was riding back home in comfort of AC. As we approached the red light crossing on highway for a turn towards sec 37, Jagesh asked me that do I like the song which was playing in the CD player. I was totally unaware about that song. I said that I havent ever heard this song. He said how come, this is so popular?? My reply was that I dont listen much to hindi songs. The he said 'Wah bihari!'
That was as usual a slap on face for being from bihar. I dont know whay ppl seem to ill treat people from bihar? have they committed any crime by coming and working here in NCR? Why are they always abused? Just for being quite in this alien land of Jats and gujjars and of inhospitable and inhuman natives of ghaziabad and delhi and haryana who dont even know the baiscs of speech and the way to talk. The bus conductors, the auto wallahs every one seem to abuse any one as a bihari. The irony is that all the factories n shops n construction activities are driven by labours and people from bihar! If all vacte this NCR region then all these people who always abuse biahris will come on road and will start their days in agony as everything will come to a grinding halt!!
Even educated people seem to have hatred for biharis. That is obvious as biharis are succesfull in every field. No one can see them as auccessful n powerful. So the best they think is to humiliate them and mock them.....
But I dont give it a damn and I had smiled when jagesh said that. I said ya I m deeply devoted to english music and i follow hindi music very less. I kept talking of here and there and then he asked about Enigma..I said yup ..play on i am a grt fan....When he started playing enigma...I was like tears in my eyes as I was remembering college days..was remembering her....
Her!!!
Ahhhh Icant write more..lemme recollect more about her
Saturday, July 15, 2006
Second Stint
Here I am. Back to the Blog world in a new Avatar. I have transitioned from a world which i will call fairy world to a world of bitterness, challenges, Proactivity, Dare, Goals, Results and Appraisals. I will explain each word as they have meant something when i keyed in them here.
So, where do i start from?
Hmm so first thing first, I have joined the corporate bandwagon by joining my company 0n 19th June. I will write separate blogs to tell you all about the happenings and feelings from day1 :)
The second thing I said was that I have transitioned from a fairy world to an altogether different kinda world. The college life was really a fairy land. It was so great to be with our friends around us all the times. The lectures, tut and labs all seem so tempting to me now. At least we were with our loved ones all the times. I am missing those sweet days. The mischiefs that we did and always looking for fun. Those bunking classes for movies, sleeping in the afternoon and well many more reasons. The night outs or late nights. Those CS matches. The FeVeR clan and server. The IPMsg..aaaaah theres so many things to jot down here :(
I even miss the ambience. The food of Annapurna which was so disgusting to all when we were there seems good to me now. Coz here i cant get a proper meal. I miss the LAN where i cud have accessed so many machines over the network ;)
I miss the beauty n the beast :P I miss the Orchard de noble and the lawn, stage and volley court. The New Lab where I was the mentor..
Above all I miss all friends, class mates, some teachers, LRC and every person down there in JIIT.
That was the fairy world. And here I have entered corporate world where no one can be friend, everyone is just ready to stab u in the back. No fun no sun :P There no space to beinf Active now, you have to be 'Proactive' as we were told in the Induction trg. Then you have to think abt goals appraisals. Prev we cared abt grades now care abt r goal too coz thats how u will be measured up the scale.
Dare or Die is the motto. It somewhat remains the same but with a twist ;)
Happy days ahead to all of you
So, where do i start from?
Hmm so first thing first, I have joined the corporate bandwagon by joining my company 0n 19th June. I will write separate blogs to tell you all about the happenings and feelings from day1 :)
The second thing I said was that I have transitioned from a fairy world to an altogether different kinda world. The college life was really a fairy land. It was so great to be with our friends around us all the times. The lectures, tut and labs all seem so tempting to me now. At least we were with our loved ones all the times. I am missing those sweet days. The mischiefs that we did and always looking for fun. Those bunking classes for movies, sleeping in the afternoon and well many more reasons. The night outs or late nights. Those CS matches. The FeVeR clan and server. The IPMsg..aaaaah theres so many things to jot down here :(
I even miss the ambience. The food of Annapurna which was so disgusting to all when we were there seems good to me now. Coz here i cant get a proper meal. I miss the LAN where i cud have accessed so many machines over the network ;)
I miss the beauty n the beast :P I miss the Orchard de noble and the lawn, stage and volley court. The New Lab where I was the mentor..
Above all I miss all friends, class mates, some teachers, LRC and every person down there in JIIT.
That was the fairy world. And here I have entered corporate world where no one can be friend, everyone is just ready to stab u in the back. No fun no sun :P There no space to beinf Active now, you have to be 'Proactive' as we were told in the Induction trg. Then you have to think abt goals appraisals. Prev we cared abt grades now care abt r goal too coz thats how u will be measured up the scale.
Dare or Die is the motto. It somewhat remains the same but with a twist ;)
Happy days ahead to all of you
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